Doing a Friday Dance!

So this has been a pretty awesome, if tiring at some times, week. Gymnastics changed, schools started, CAP, my job added too...
First Bear DID move up. (Of course we knew he would) SO there goes my bank account and then some lol. He tried it Tuesday and LOVED it. Its longer times, and he knows starting in a few months he will be competing in front of lots of people. His uniform is ordered. We are trying to raise money to help cover fees. 2 different booster clubs plus meets and travel costs and I do believe we have to pay to even get into his meets to watch LOL. Let us hope we can raise enough to keep going until everything is settled down for us.

School officially started yesterday although they have been working for the past week and half. They like it. Im sure it will get harder as time goes on but the first days are pretty slow. We are starting to get the hang of it. I dont think we are missing anything yet

CAP should start getting more going as well. They like to do things when temps get cooler. So we are watching and waiting on that one. Of course now that Bears gymnastics has moved... One is the same day as CAP so its been a scramble to rearrange things.

Ugg on my job. I was REALLY enjoying my 3 day weekends. And well they were just ripped from me lol.  I guess the person on Friday was not doing a good job..Ok I dont guess it.. I KNOW. And I was already irritated from having to pretty much double my Mondays to fix what she didnt do. ANd now.. well Im stuck working it.. But I wont complain much.. It is a lil more money(which as you can see we need right now)

After around March hopefully things will be a lot better.. I hope to have the car paid off. And stuff caught up. Hubs will have hopefully moved up at his job by then. I think even after he moves up Im going to stay working for a lil bit to make money needed for the activities. And try to start saving because each time he moves up the more expensive it is. And the further we will be going for meets.

And now Im off to make my menu and grocery list. I have put it off all week and thats not good lol. Bear has a class at 9 he has to sign into and they have some work to do today, And I have got to get this done so I can go shopping after work tonight(Im sure we all want to eat tomorrow...And yes the kids have said uhhh moommmmmmm.... When are you going to get more milk(theres like a inch left in the jug right now lol) )

Have a wonderful weekend everyone. :)

New day New decisions

Wow.. The changes in the house keep happening. Papa Bear is really liking his job and Im super glad that this is working out.
Mr B turns 13 next week. (AKKKKK) and... drumroll...
We are pulling them once again from the public school here. We have not been happy. We have debated since placing them back in the district whether we did the right thing or not. And most the time it was not. The structure.. is fine. The curriculum.. not so fine.. The bullies.. way not fine.. I find it nuts how little learning they actually do. I hate seeing my kids depressed almost everyday over the environment. Mr B, well hes sad about losing band, but we will get involved in the homeschool band. (as soon as funds permit) And Lil bear will even get to start playing at his age rather than waiting till hes Mr Bs age. We are choosing the K12 program for this endeavor. I for one worry about them getting the credits needed to finish. The boys many times in the last year and a half have stated how much they miss the friends they had when homeschooling. And doing activities with them.  Missing being accepted. Public school has been such a issue. If your pants arent sagging, your not doing drugs, having sex.. etc your not cool. And these are YOUNG kids. If you are smart and have goals.. you will not be accepted. This has been a major roadblock. These kids are more concerned with making people like them, than making decent grades and having goals that are past tomorrow. I talked to people at the school, I tried doing what I needed to do. But.. even I have to admit defeat. I am one of very few parents who give a crap about my kids education, and what they do, who their friends are etc. I am a minority in this. And I cant fight a system full of people who really dont care. For every 2-3 students trying to learn there are 10-15 pushing them down. Its a losing battle. And when I have to admit defeat because, myself as a adult, cant fight the system to make changes there...How is my child supposed to win??? Im disappointed in watching how the system is repeatedly failing. We gave it a shot. We tried. We gave the benefit of the doubt.. And were failed. We were given excuses. I feel sorry for the teachers who give a crap. Their hands are tied behind their backs. These unsupervised un parented children..are running the schools. They are running the streets. And they are terrorizing whoever they can. We are watching it happen on our street. What used to be a good neighborhood is turning into a awful place to live. And the school is full of these. Its a no win situation there. I feel better now that I made this decision and the children are extremely happy to be back into a comfortable learning situation. ANd Mr B is back to making his goals and striving to them, when he was starting to give up. :D

Changes in the home

After having a long conversation with a friend I wish I lived closer to, about the kids and chores and responsibilities..About my lack of patience lately with it all. About how I wish for my boys to grow up and be productive parts of society..And know how to live on their own....I got some REALLY good advice. And have a lot of things to think about.
You know I just did a post about chores. About the things I want my boys to know how to do. The one thing I didnt touch upon is cooking. Yup.. My boys are about to make a foray into the kitchen. We used to have the boys in the kitchen whenever one of us cooked. And kinda let it go a few years back. And I realize what a disservice it is to them. And to me. Some people might think its wrong(Yeah I dont care) Others will be like.. WAY TO GO(yeah I care heehee who doesnt like pats on the back) But how many of you women would like a man who can cook??? (I have my hand raised HIGH in the air waving it back and forth) Ok so I dont because it would be impossible to type. And the fact that Papa Bear does know how to cook..Now..And most things.......My hubs cant fry a egg. And I think has made pancakes once, heck NEVER has he made french toast. And there are lots of things that frustrate me when it comes to the kitchen. But not nearly as much as they used to. You see I remember 13 years ago when papa could not cook hardly anything. But over the years he has learned. And my goodness that man can make a lasagna to die for. (and not from frozen) OMG Im gonna put that on the menu right now for him to make. Now he helps me a lot. I love it. More times than not papa bear can make the dinner and I can sit here typing away. But the point of this loooonggg drawn out post is, MY KIDS CANT COOK!! During my conversation with my awesome friend, I was jealous of her lol. Her kids are all younger than my oldest. And they can cook almost anything. I agree with the logic. When the kids grow up you want them to be able to handle life. TO cook for themselves to be able to pay their bills, because we all know we do want these kiddos to move out eventually..So starting today(yes today not waiting another minute) Im bringing my kids back in the kitchen. Starting easy. Because soon I will have a young adult on my hands. And then a couple years later I will have another one. And as young adults they should have more responsibilities. They should learn to function. I cant count how many times I have stood over a stove cooking with a horrid headache. Or feeling like a truck ran me over.. When they were old enough to make something simple. So tonight I will have both boys start in the kitchen cooking with me.
Thats step 1. In that step it is bringing them into the kitchen with me.
Step 2 will be giving them easy meals to cook ON THEIR OWN.
Step 3 will be giving them one night a week they cook dinner.
I also want to work on teaching them to make desserts. Hey I want some brownies sometimes and dont wanna make them myself.
We are also in the process of redoing the chore lists. Because well.. they get bored. And it seems I will be up cleaning etc and they will be playing video games. So many changes because part of me hasnt been really letting these kids grow. Maybe trying to keep them a lil longer as kids. Not wanting them to feel like slaves. But its realizing .... if your working WITH them.. they wont feel that way :D ANd they will learn. Off to the kitchen. Time to teach some boys so that when they grow up they wont be coming to my house every night for dinner!!!

SUMMER!!!

Summer did officially begin for us a couple weeks ago. But we have yet to enjoy it completely lol. We are fighting with a pool. Bought it last year, used it 2 months, And it began to leak. Im sure most people wouldnt see a leak if it was nothing but grass around it. But since ours is right by concrete. It ran and ran and ran. The hard plastic on the ladder feet is not a good idea. As it scratches and tears. But holy crap, If Im gonna spend a couple hundred bucks on a pool, I expect it to last longer than a couple months. So this year so far we have put it up, Place MULTIPLE(ok we are at 6) patches, A couple of them are patched twice.(3 times if you count the patch attempt with the piece of crap patches that Intex puts with its cheaply made pools that we tried last summer). Im so irritated its not even funny. My kids have been waiting weeks to try it out after missing out on it at the end of summer last year. We bought a new patch kit. And read online how others got them to work...ANd my only thing is.. ITS NOT WORKING!! Last year we had to drain this thing quite a few times. And this is not a small pool. This is one of those big ones with the PVC poles to hold it up. Putting it together is simple. But be super careful because the bottom of it is some of the thinnest crap. So when trying to get it spread out to fill with water, treat it with kid gloves. Heck if you have a piece of plus carpet that fits under the whole thing. I recommend it. Something to cushion that flimsy bottom. Ok back to the problem at hand. Where I live weather can be a problem. And when you have the thing put up minus water waiting on all the patches to HOPEFULLY SET.. You have to be super careful of wind. You dont want it taking off like a flying saucer. Patch the stupid thing up. Put 6 inches of water in it for 24 hours to see if its gonna hold.. NOPE. Stupid piece of crap. Next listen to 2 kids throw fits because Im about to shoot the damn pool and put it and myself out of its misery. So drain that 6 inches of water, Patch same damn spots once again. Yes it hold for... oh.... a hour. Patching both the top and the under.. Again... And watch the weather that says yep more frikkin wind. So sitting here about to say screw it and see how far it would fly. I refuse to spend almost as much as I did on the pool itself to buy a new cheaply made liner. If the bottom was made out of the same thickness as the side you could actually use it for a lot longer. I had less problems with those 10 buck blow up pools when my kids were smaller. Ok going back out to curse the pool and HOPE these patches hold because we are expecting stong wind tonight so I HAVE to get enough water in it to hold the thing down. ANd if they hold.. it will be over a day of filling it and hoping that it doesnt take long to warm lol.

Kids helping..

Now I am a firm believer that kids should help do things around the house. From helping with laundry, dishes, lawn work. Because its being part of the family. It should not be all the parents job(once kids reach certain ages) to do all the laundry, or dishes, or lawn work...etc. My 2 growling bears have had chores for many years. It started with the basic picking up of toys. TO getting dirty clothes in a basket, to putting your dishes in a sink....And now they are at the ripe old ages of 9 and almost 13, And we can even get them doing this.....
Painting of the neighbors shed.

 Ooooo Mowing(yeah see dirt spot next pic)

 And helping level the ground again for the pool!!

Its actually nice to have some helpers. Now, Mr B can even run a load of clothes in the washer. They CAN wash dishes....ummm but the finished product isnt always clean...(note to self.. maybe a dishwasher might come in handy.. since I happen to own the last house in the world without one) They can even clean the toilet!! (Yes I do get excited about this.. because umm I am the ONLY female in this house.. and I DO NOT make those messes) Its nice to be able to get a kid to help vacuum.. or even sweep.. And when asked what chores they dont think they can do.. They will say they can do them all. And to me that is part of being in the family. Sharing responsibilities in the house that you live in, is a absolute MUST. I dont eat off all the dishes. And I am positive all these dirty clothes are not just mine. So why should it be MY responsibility?? Even Papa bear does laundry and dishes :D . I wont say making your kids do chores is easy. Sometimes its more fighting than you would feel its worth. Yes I do get sick of telling each grumbling growling its not my day bear...that it is indeed their day to wash a kitchen table. Heck we argue who went first in the shower the night before..And no they dont argue to BE first... But ya know.. when these grumblers grow up into big bears. and become hubby bears and papa bears themselves... I dont want them to be grizzly lazy hibernating bears. I want their girly bears to come and say.. ya know mama bear thank you for teaching your baby bears how to be responsibly hubby bears. :D WHen they grow up and get married or whatever..They can help do that laundry and will have very thankful girly bears :D

My Mind??? Have you seen it?

Today I feel like I have lost my mind lol. I have been insane these past few days. Yesterday was LAST DAY of school.(Can we say YAY??) But ended up hosting my mother here last night so I could take her to the hospital this morning for a angiogram. Sooooo at 8 am Im in a car heading to hospital, leave hospital to run back home to take dog out and grab a drink at 10:45 at 11:30 I am at the TV station when phone rings saying shes done, so I stay at station for almost a hour then head back to hospital.. Well they are still trying to get her to stop bleeding because she kept coughing causing the artery to open again. Soooo at 1:30 I leave hospital to get food(ummm yeah forgot to eat) Back at hospital by 2. (My stomach is NOT happy about sucking down nasty mcdonalds that quick) Leave hospital again around 2:30 to come home and wait for a few more hours because she has to pass a walking test at 430, and be able to leave at 5:30. SUPPOSEDLY she should be ready at the door at 5:30 because I have to rush back home in rush hour traffic, to get my own self to work right after 6, Mr B needs to be dropped off at 630 for a CAP thing, and I have to finish 2 buildings by 720 to pick Mr B up at 7:30.......ANd then back here to relieve a neighbor and Lil bear from mother duty. Thank goodness for the neighbor because Bear was scared to death to be here alone with her in case something happened. Tomorrow I can rest for the most part. Mother will be here until after lunch time when she can drive herself home. Then Saturday we will be with Mr B starting at 8am-1pm helping with cadets and keeping them fed and entertained....And running home for bear to change clothes to get in his gymnastics for his mini meet, then back home to get redressed in nice clothes for a graduation at 6:30pm. I may not leave my bed on Sunday even though hubs wants to go to the Zoo HAHAHAHAH... Now excuse me while I fall over from the insanity..

Positive???? Please???

We are still waiting on job word. I wish it wouldn't take so long. Hate sitting on pins and needles. So lets all cross fingers and hope for a phone call today :).
Bear did not move up in gymnastics. Which is ok. Hes really not ready, but he was completely bummed. I did not think he wanted to move up that bad. With all the crap hes been through this year I am not surprised he didnt. He hasnt had constant practice. But its all right. He will work harder this next year and maybe then we will all be ready(I will admit I wasnt ready for all that either)
I am sick.. again. I swear Im sick of being sick. Started as allergies and turned into a killer chest and head cold. SO I am in day..4 or 5 of feeling like crap. Add on I stopped taking the Yaz pills because they really were not doing what they should have. Not wasting money on it if its not doing what I need(no not the birth control part lolol Im sure that worked, I wouldnt know Papa Bear is fixed ;) )So Im miserable from the top of my head to my feet. Trying to get better but cant stop going like the energizer bunny over these kids. haha.
I think that may be a complete update on the whole house.......If not blame it on the brain fill with snot...

School is almost over!!

Ok I am officially doing a happy dance. Im sick of getting up early. Ready to sleep in. 13 days left and in that 13 days we have, park day, awards, band concert, super kids day, gymnastics, civil air patrol, add on work work and more work. And having a garage sale today. Yesterday was field trip day for lil bear and it was AWFUL. Long story short, I reaaally dislike most peoples kids. They are rude hateful disrespectful And yes Im letting a cluster of punks ruin my thoughts on other peoples kids. 5000+ people yesterday at the field trip. And a huge amount of kids were horrid. Lil bear and countless others were targeted harrassed punched. And believe me I was MAD. Lil bear was punched in the stomach and the nose by kids who were around 15 years old. Lil bear is 9. The other kids that got injured were also ages 7-10.  Its time for some parents to stop trying to play kids best buds and be freaking parents. This crap is getting old faster and faster everyday.
Ok so that rant is over and Im getting back to watching the garage sale and hope to make some cash :D

A case of the VAPORS!!

Lil Bear had surgery on Thursday to remedy what happened at the ER a month and a half ago. For those who have no idea what Im talking about and maybe I didn't elaborate.. Lil bear was circumcised at age 9 years after the ER misdiagnosed and did a forced retraction resulting in injury.. Well he has been in a lot of pain for these 3 days. Last night was horrible. He cried almost all afternoon and evening. All this on top of tornado weather and me knowing I cant get him in a cellar because he cant walk... and having a 12 year old who has anxiety in storms. My mental status was pretty frayed.. Keep in mind Papa Bear is working a 2nd job so he was gone.. and same goes for today.. So he gets up this morning and was ok for about 15 min. then the pain set in again. Got him to potty and he noticed blood. So calls go into the surgeons office and they give me instructions of wrap it in gauze, and only give Tylenol..Ummm doesnt everyone know Tylenol SUCKS! Got him brekkie, gave the sucky meds. and about 1130 he needs to potty again. So get the potty over, start to redress the wound.. and lil bear starts talking about how hot he feels.
And then looks at me and says mom...I dont feel so well, and his eyes roll back in his head and down he goes. I catch him before he hits the floor and it looks like he is having a seizure. Not real jerky but still twitchy. Insert mom heart stop here..So sitting in the bathroom floor holding my 9 year old who is out cold he finally comes too and is very...not there. then he starts to dry heave. I yell for Mr B to get me the phone and I call 911. I shook so hard it took me 3 times to dial it out. They get people sent this way and I cradle carry bear to the couch and hes still confused. (Yes I pulled up his undies as quick and gentle  as I could.. )And then proceed to TRY to call Papa bear.. over and over and over. He had no signal. I sent a text telling him bear had a seizure and about to go to hospital. Guess a few min later he finally walked to a area where a signal put through the message and all the missed calls. (Insert papa heart stop here) Papa calls and I try to explain at same time paramedics asking questions and neighbor getting Mr B. They finally decided which hospital to go to(the one the surgery was done at or the kids one) Kids one won out. So off we went. Papa Bear beat us there since he was really only a few blocks away. Bear was doing good by this time. We spent a few hours in the hospital where they treated him like a prince. Gave him whatever he wanted and gave him REAL pain meds.

Soo.. heres where I say what happened...Since he was only given a very sucky pain med.. His body couldnt fight the pain..so he fainted. Scared the shit out of me. I do not ever want to see my kids eyes roll back in their heads. I dont want to watch my kid crumple to a floor.. I do not want to ever have to call 911 again.. Just writing this is making the tears I couldnt let fall at the time, come. Hes better tonight.. But hes on some good meds(and well all those who know me KNOW I dont like giving meds unless necessary. And well this is. I hope tomorrow is better. He needs a break! (and so do we)

Pictures....

Here is the past few months summed up in pictures I FINALLY downloaded off the phone...Yeah theres no more room on my phone for pictures lol so have to go take most off...

 Bear doing work on a nightstand he wants to paint

 Bear playing with TV buttons.(No he left them all on air lol)

 Mr B looking snazzzzzzy!!!

 FINALLY a pic of that van...

 Both boys doing archery

 Won a medal for completing all 10 challenges

 My niece and nephew turned 1

 Bear has spent a LOT of time in doc offices in the past couple months..

 While Mr B is away at the gun range... We went to the art museum. THis is Chihuly glass behind bear...

Also saw a OU Mens gymnastics meet.. Bear caught a shirt :)

13 years gone by

Well.. I think my tears are done falling. Im not sure I have any left. Friday was my 13 year wedding anniversary and it went by with more sadness that smiles. Its been such a rough year I couldnt even fake a happy smile. Healing needs to be done. But has to be done from both directions. A day I should be happy was filled with nothing but sadness.
Papa bear wanted to take me out Saturday. But it was canceled due to lil bear needing to go to the ER and well he really isnt up to being at someone elses house. But its ok. Im glad that something was planned because at least I was more than a after thought this year. But it wont be rescheduled. I hate feeling like Im being pitied. Or because Im upset its time to make me feel special. Some talking was done today. But it may be years, if we can make it that long, before things get even back to 90% of what they were. I am not very hopeful. My hope started dying months ago. Bear with me while I dont update because no one should need to read the negativity my life has become full of. I just need to work on me. I cant make someone love me, or make them find me special. I can only find out if I can love myself again..

Nasa Orion Exhibit!!!

Last night we spent some time at the Science Museum with the CAP Cadets. We went for the special Orion Exhibit and had a AWESOME time(there is no other way to say it.) We met astronaut John Herrington and Larry Price, Lockheed Martin Orion Deputy Program Manager. He is a super smart guy. I will never be able to figure out numbers as quickly as he does. Add on meeting Joshua Byerly who is one of 3 voices in the countdown we all know so well. The cadets had a great time learning more about Orion and the space shuttle(yes we are all sad there will be no more) John Herrington and Larry Price even met with us after closing time for more picture taking and more Q&A. We listened to a presentation by Larry Price explaining what the hopes for the future of NASA and what Orion will be doing. John Herrington also answered a TON of questions about what he did as a astronaut does wears eats and how it feels to blast off. Here are a few pictures...And the cadets even had their picture put on Nasa Orions facebook page!!( famous cadets now!!) 

John Herrington front and center

ORION

Q&A during presentation

A great group of Cadets

Bear signing a plate to be put back on Orion and flown into space

Taking extra time for Q&A

Joshua Byerly (1 of 3 voices for the countdown. REALLY funny guy)

Larry Price!! Amazed by his brain!

A new week

SO far the menu is working great. Im sticking to it and will have plenty into the next shopping trip that I should actually come in under budget. I cant wait to finally come under budget lol. Also probably taking on a overnight job that only last like 6 days but it makes ok money to make up for some of the shortcomings. Taxes will hopefully be able to be filed in the coming week(just waiting on one more paper... PLEASE let it come this week) As soon as we can get another vehicle I will definitely be all on board for Papa bear to get a new job. I want to make sure I have reliable transportation in case his hours change if he does indeed find a new job.

The boys are out of school tomorrow. I have no idea what we are going to do. Not much Im sure. Mr B is having some issues with school work and is now failing 2 classes so he is enduring the grounding. Just when I think his head on straight.... The weather is supposed to be super nice tomorrow and so I think Im gonna make at least one of them enjoy it haha.

We are supposed to take lil bear to the doc this week. Honestly I am so not happy with the way the new doc is handling the sleep apnea issue.. Including stating we should take him to a behavior specialist...That I think I will be asking to see the main doc. So far the different treatments have included steroid sprays up the nose for 2 weeks that stuffed him up where he had more trouble breathing. The next 2 weeks was supposed to be a mix of Unisom and breathe right strips. Lets say.. I gave the unisom for all of 2 days when I just couldnt bring myself to do it again. To me I am thinking.. hmmm the kid stops breathing in his sleep so why am I giving him something to relax him even more where he may stop breathing for longer.. Yeah no sense at all. Breathe right strips he likes.. Sucky part is they come in boxes of 12 for close to $4.50...So looks like I get to add to my budget for those. He does like how it makes it EASIER to breathe. But another crappy part... We still hear him stop breathing..so obviously thats not working all the way either. I need the other docs input now. this lady is just starting to tick me off lol.

Ok so my fingers are crossed that this is going to be a good week...... :D :D

Respect

Respect...Something we all want to have. But seems to also be a thing of the past. You go into a store...You will find that it seems only the door greater and the cashier are decent(not everytime) You see the customers who only care about themselves. Running you over, not caring kids are there. Or you see kids that are HORRIBLE to everyone around them.

Can I say my kids are a exception?..Or am I one?? No.. When I go to a store I do get frustrated with others.I try to be mindful and yet others are rude. Which it turn..I get rude. My kids...Now for the most part with others they are very respectful We get told this all the time. With us.. Wow.. almost never. This is a issue we are trying to nip in the bud. And quickly. Mr B hasnt been very nice at all. And has stated he doesnt have to be respectful to me. So now its lesson time.. 

(Everyone disciplines differently and I love to hear your ideas lol)

My lovely Mr.B...ahhhh the kid who can warm your heart and then break it right after. Since returning from boot camp..Lets just say he seems to think I dont matter. What I say what I do...And the fact Im just the stupid mom I dont deserve....RESPECT.....Im not a officer so using the yes mam term does not apply to me...ahhh did this boy have it very very wrong. You see. Life bit him in the butt. And bit him hard. I was mad which is a understatement. And found though..hmmm I have the upperhand. I am the driver to where he needs to go. And he had a meeting last night. Guess who wasnt driving? that is right..Me. Using the old saying Dont bite the hand that feeds you rang good and true. He had no ride. And since I pay the phone bill he couldnt use it to find a ride. He missed his meeting, And I called his commander to let him know that and why. And he then had to go to work with me(explain this is a sec)

Papa Bear was not happy at all with Mr Bs decision. (Thats putting it lightly) So he added to the punishment. Missing one meeting isnt going to make a point with its multiple infractions is it? Since Mr B also seems to think I do nothing in this house(yes dishes laundry etc are done by faeries) He is now gaining a appreciation for all I do on a daily basis. He knows it is not womens work because even papa does laundry and dishes. Part of this is my fault because I do not make them do much around here. I really wanted them to just be kids. But I do expect help in the chores. It takes a matter of minutes when we all get to it. Normally while they are at school I get the laundry washed and dishes done etc. But right now I am getting a break. Mr B is finding out laundry doesnt come clean on its own and dishes dont wash themselves either. As for the going to work with me....

I work to pay for the kids activities. I work a very small PT job 5 nights a week. And Mr B is now going to be helping me at least twice a week to work for his activities. Lil Bear has been helping me for the past 2 years. Mr B is learning(a lil late on my part) to work for what he wants. He also has to ask me to drive him where he needs to go. It is no longer assumed that I am available as his driver. He must ask in advance(even though I KNOW he has a meeting the same time and day every week) 

Does this sound horrible???  Nahhhhh Life isnt always pleasant. And for my lil cadet...hes learning this. And when he grows up, gets married. His wife will thank us that he knows how to operate a washing machine and washes dishes. He will also appreciate her much more. Because he will KNOW she worked hard. And to me.. that will be worth the stress of these days. 

Off to bootcamp

This morning I sent Mr B off. He should be in Kansas in the next hour or 2. Signing in and settling into the barracks. Yes a few tears escaped after he left. Im letting my baby go. Even though its only a week its still so hard for me to deal with. Im sure I will be ok for a day or 2. Then Im gonna miss the fire out of him.
Christmas was great. We spent time with the in-laws. The kids loved their presents. And even I got a cool present from papa bear. Cake decorating kit. Lots of new tips for me to play with when I feel like baking again. LOL. I have baked so much in the past couple weeks Im worn out. A couple more weeks and I will be ready to play with it.  We were shopping for the lil things up till the afternoon Christmas Eve, Papa bear didnt get paid till Friday so lots of things had to be put off till then. Was able to make dinner work. Im glad of that. I was super worried after I ended up having to figure out where to find the money to buy it all.
Im hoping for a great new year. So crossing my fingers that things will finally start looking up in the financial department. Im hoping for the first time in 13 years not to worry how to pay the bills.
Well off to play with lil bear. hes lonely already without his bubba here lol

Finally some pictures......

Mr B Playing in his First Band Concert

Lil Bear at his meet

Mr B went to the gun range and got his marksmanship badge!!

Mr B with his cousin the Prince

Bear with cousin the princess

Yep the babies are twins :D Those were taken when we went to the in law house for Thanksgiving. The boys LOOOOOOVE the babies and I swear carried or played with them constantly for over 8 hours. They kept switching which baby they held. It was really sweet. I think one day they are gonna make good daddies.

Mr B is getting ready for boot camp. In a week he will be on a van heading out. Im the nervous mom even though Im sure he will do great. He has a pot luck dinner with his CAP squad Tuesday and I have lots of baking to do before then. He is excited for all of it. Its gonna be a super quiet week without him around.

He had his first band concert. Did great. Hes the blond in the 2nd row at the end LOL. Hes also joining the reading club at his school, and we just changed his schedule for the next semester. He will now be in AP science. Hes also working on all other subjects so he will be comfortable moving to AP classes in other subjects next year. We looked at OU school of meteorology the other day and he saw what he needs to get done to prepare. Im pretty proud that hes paying this close attention to the things he needs to do to get ready for college.  

Bear had his meet and did great. Hes still needing to work on his nervousness when people are watching. Its better each time but its still there. He is also turning 9 this week. Where has the time gone? I cant believe he is already turning 9!!!! My baby really isnt a baby anymore. Hes doing great in school. Has moments where he cant shut up (which is total opposite of a couple years ago where teachers were complaining about him NOT being social) He had a sleep study done and we have to go to the docs this week to discuss the results. 

Alot of stuff going on. Papa bear is on vacation again(ya know the use it or lose it) Hes gonna get some items on the to do list done.  Now Im off to get lil bear moving to eat before school...hes boycotting everything I have. LOL

Seriously!! This year is almost gone!

Well.. Im just in shock. This year has passed me by and I swear I just realized ITS OCTOBER! And close to the middle of it as well! With the calendar so full Im just looking at the list of to do not the date lol
Bear had gymnastics yesterday. Amazes me how good hes getting. Scares me as well! Im realizing..that soon he will be doing flips across my yard. And not just the easy ones, but the flying in the air ones!!(heart attack time) Since moving up to advanced Im seeing a improvement in is attitude towards gymnastics. He was starting to not like it before moving up, Mainly because he was just frustrated not learning new stuff. Now hes smiling as he flips and stuff again. (Im a wonderful gymnastics mom...I call it all stuff LOL Maybe one day I will learn the names of everything)
Mr B has had a rough couple weeks. He hasnt been the best he could be. I think we are starting back on the turn around to being good again though. He is learning.... Just hate having to say well...If this was done or said to you how would you feel? He feels it when its turned around and hes like oh crap I wouldnt feel very happy. Seems the more we do that, the more he understands that he needs to treat people alot better because it would suck to be treated like crap himself.
Other than the attitude getting adjusted, Hes doing well with CAP when he decides its important.(hey I still have to realize he is 12 and while he has his life planned out dont mean hes not just 12 and wants to play video games......) Hes going to start to feel like hes doing something soon. Today they are putting WW2 veterans on a plane heading for DC. This Saturday he will be guarding planes and helping promote CAP. The next weekend he has search and rescue. Lots to do!!
Papa bear is still working all the time. So nothing different there.
I am trying to decide as to go get a full time job and make seeing the fam worse...Lots of hard decisions coming up. And well..When are decisions ever easy?
Time to go wake the lil bear and get him moving on getting ready for school..Wish me luck!!

Lil Bears birthday.

Soooo.. I realized I never made it back to show off lil bears birthday. He had a blast. Well after the house went quiet. Since he is after all, our child who seems to not do well in large crowds. He likes the idea, but clams up when it happens. So here are some pictures to show the day. Including the cake I had a blast making...Until the piping bag exploded....

Making Candy Cane Reindeer. Many Thanks to all who came and celebrated our lil bear turning 7~!

7 years ago...

7 years ago I walked my hallway. Sat in the recliner, got up walked, took a hundred showers. And walked some more. 7 years ago I brought him home. Now.. 7 years later.. I have



I cant believe..its been 7 years already.

Another Dentist appointment down..

With a miserable kid left behind. Lil Bear and Mr B had to go to the dentist yesterday. I may never get Lil Bear there again. He is done. Mr B had a couple teeth pulled and a filling(his first cavity) The 2 teeth were just baby teeth that were hanging on for dear life. Lil Bear on the other hand, who seems to never get a break, had a tooth pulled that wouldn't have come out on its own normally, till he was about 10. They pulled the molar(which still has a huge root attached)Filled a adult tooth that JUST CAME THROUGH. And then put in a spacer on the hole left behind from the molar. He is a miserable and uncomfortable little boy. These spacer things..are the oddest little things. A square piece of metal. Thats empty in the center(EMPTY!!!) so yay.. Everytime he eats we have to go brush the teeth and HOPE we can get every little bit of food out of that little hole. ARRRRGGGGG. The frustration with his mouth goes back getting close to 5 years. When he got his teeth broke. From that point on. One thing after another. Putting flouride on his teeth twice a day everyday, for a year. Then getting them fixed to have them fixed 2 more times due to them getting broke AGAIN Then all the antibiotics from his lungs, gave him a ton of cavities. Finally resulting in surgery literally a year ago. Now this. And..you guessed it. Next will be braces. I will leave this post with a picture from a year ago of him looking sooo pathetic just coming outta surgery..