Friday, November 30, 2012

Is time flying by?

Seems like everytime I sit down, a week has gone by. With the holidays around, and gymnastics, and all the changes and stresses...Seems like the days have flown past me at the speed of light. Just 2 weeks ago we were headed to Arkansas for Bears first gymnastics meet. He was sick. The asthma flared its ugly head and turned into bronchitis. He hacked up a storm, gurgled in his sleep, breathing treatments galore...That Saturday he looked like death worn over. No where near his normal energy level. We worried about him even trying to compete. Needless to say(and you saw the pictures I hope) he placed in all events. Now, none of will say he gave his best performance ever..He didn't  he knew he didn't  but he felt like crap. And competed anyway. When most of us would have laid in bed whining. He got up, put on his uniform, tried to eat some breakfast, grabbed his bag, and out the door. Miserable.

Now, today, he competes again. This time at home, and he says hes ready to give it his all. He has pushed himself this week to perfect what he can. Im pretty proud of my little bear. Watching him during a private lesson this week, I saw the determination to get it right. I saw him get mad at himself when it wasn't. But instead of giving up, he tried over and over and over. Today,for the first time in front of family and friends, he will strut his stuff. We have friends that were super excited and ready to come see him, family that have never seen him like this. He is a little nervous about this, but Im betting he will do fine. And of course I will be taking pictures and video!

Now, school has been a little rough going again. I think the break has them just really not wanting to do it. But they are, begrudgingly, but they are getting it done, and their grades seem to be showing it. So maybe Im doing something right there.

The daily stresses seem to get worse. Money issues are killing me. Tired of stressing out over everything. Especially with the holidays. Worried about the house, and everyone wanting the dimes I dont have. Papa Bear working a new job, making things better, but they arent because it was a minute to late on somethings. And so now we are just sitting and waiting, and hoping... Unsure of which way to go next. My nerves have been shot, and at times I feel super lost. Trying to not take away the kids activities, because they worked so hard, and had to wait so long just for us to be able to swing it, but swinging anything is hard right now. Im trying to stretch a dollar till it breaks. And screwing up because I realize we need more because of the cost of everything that has gone up. Seems like a never ending cycle. Im determined to not give up even though it feels like it would be so much easier. We will see.

Anyways, Im off of the computer once again to get some stuff done. Its been a mess around here with how busy we have been, the house shows it. Bye all!!

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